Gnawings

Do you ever get a gnawing feeling that doesn't go away? Something that claws at you, something that always seems to find your attention. The other day, a letter came from my daughter's new primary school welcoming us as new members of the school and informing us of orientation events before she starts next year. It got me thinking, how is she going to go next year, will she enjoy school, or will she hate it? What about the future, what will she be like in twenty years? Will she be at university?

I look at my daughter and mostly I feel proud of her, but she also acts as a mirror and I can see myself. Then, things about my past start grinding and I'm thinking of hopes and dreams and where they are taking me. All those, would bes and will bes and going tos. Where are they? Not gone but they echo on and on. But you know again, children will fall over and get up again and carry on. Why can't adults do this? why do we collect the baggage on the way? Paul in Corinthians tells us "When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things." But the point is we don't. What we need to do is stop over analysing, stop complicating things by thinking too much, get more into the moment. Own your life and stop listening to those gnawing whispers, those echoes of what you were, be who you are!

Cooking

Ah cooking remember that! I was going to write about cooking, and gardening and learning Mandarin

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On Saturday evening, I delivered up one of the best meals I've cooked so far. First I cooked Julie Goodwin's recipe for lamb chops and potato bake accompanied by the BBC Food's recipe for cauliflower cheese I Can't say my daughter raved about it. For her, only her mother's cooking is acceptable, well half the time. However, Zhe thought it was pretty good. So that is good enough for me. Tomorrow, Saturday I am going to continue with the baking theme and do a minced beef and potato bake. So I will see how that goes

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Hopefully, the weather gods will be smiling over Melbourne and the weather is good so I can do some gardening. We bought two chickens home last week, so I am looking forward to them following me around looking for worms as I dig

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OK, just a short one for you this week. What are you doing on the weekend?