Ok, so it has been a long time since I have written anything here - over a year in fact. Well here I go again, don't let it be said that I am giving up on these things. So Pockets of Small Somethings, here I go with the latest installment and the latest turn that this blog has taken. My daily vents where I will write and get the thoughts in my head out. It sounds like a plan!
OK, I have been reading a lot lately about the meaning of life and I am thinking that maybe I have done with that and need to move on to something else. I am feeling small and a undervalued, worthless at times, I need to move on and get out of the rut that I am in. But I need to know how to go about this and work it out for myself. How do I discover that happiness in my life. I am not talking about being in a happy state all the time - well at least that's not what I think i want. Rather it is to be happy and content in life with all the speed bumps that get thrown up along the way. I need to get over this current mood I am in and discover things about myself. I need to break through the negativity that comes and find something that makes me happy. I am listening/watching youtube and finding some stuff on that. I am not waking up in the middle of the night now going over things. I am not waking up feeling scared of the day ahead as I was doing, but there is a very big unease about my life, my work and relationships with family, work colleagues, I need to stop harping on in my head about this and stop the self talk that goes along. I need to discipline my mind and get over all this noise that comes up in my head. So I will do the meditations and I will continue to listen to postitive stuff. I will keep going and try not to let life get me down. I will count the blessings that I have because there are blessings. I will change myself and get over these thoughts that come up.
Start today to do this. So I am on this journey. It is a road with many different branches and sometimes I walk down the wrong road and then have to find myself back on the right route. I am OK and despite everything I am doing ok. I was listening to a talk and a Brahma was talking about being at a point in life where you start to despair and thinking about life being like the hero's journey. So I am on the hero's journey. Yes life will throw me challenges and I may not do so well at times, but I will go on and endure and get better and move on just a little down this road. Pockets full of Somethings. In my pocket I have a screw, what have you? Sometimes all you need to do is something simple - putting a hand in your pocket and you pull out treasure, I need to get over this rut and find myself down that road. I will OK and I am OK.
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