How much time has gone by since I last wrote a blog.

Well things have changed a bit. Zhe's pregnant and I am going to be a father. Things got going pretty quickly. I will be a dad before we celebrate our first wedding anniversary. How do I feel. Scared, elated. You name it. There was elation when the doctor told us we were pregnant. (yes, it is a we thing) But afterwards, the self doubts and everything else clicked in. How will this go? What kind of father will I be?

Zhe is now in the second trimester and she is till getting morning sickness. Isn't this the honeymoon period of the pregnancy?



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Tomorrow New Life Begins

Tomorrow is Zhe's and my wedding day.

I am elated
I am nervous
I am counting down the hours
I am thinking what have I forgot to organise
I am thinking who did I forget to invite
I am in love

I want to dance

Time's gone, where

I'm sitting here at the computer surrounded by furniture. The house is being renovated and I'm feeling a little lost.

Not to much though. Zhe is here and that is all that matters. Things didn't go like I dreamt they would but everything is good and I feel great.

It's all go!

After so long, everything has come in and Zhe has been given a visa.

I am feeling so elated. Now I have to wait until she gets a flight here. Everything is fantastic and I just want to go out to the airport and wait for her to come through the customs doors.

Have to be busy over the next couple of weeks cleaning the house up. But I am so rapt.

Thanks God, for making this possible.

I'm feeling really tired of things

Today I feel really tired and sore around my shoulders. Work has slowed right down with everybody waiting for Christmas and I am just waiting for the days to go by until the Christmas break. Everything with Zhe is in and we're just waiting for the decision. I hope it comes soon, after 2 years and 10 months of a long distance relationship i just want her here. I think this waiting is really getting to me.

I can't be bothered doing anything.

Good Garden Day

Today was a good gardening day.

I have this area at the side of my house which I haven't weeded for years. This morning I got up early went for a walk and then when I came home got to work. It was so over grown with weeds, every time I would walk passed this area and think one day I'm going to fix this area and today was the day that I decided to do it. Started work around 10.00 and finished at 4.00. Now it looks like it did about 4 years ago. So much has happened to me since then. I am so glad that I cleaned this area up.

Zhe I hope will be here soon. Everything that I am doing at the moment is aimed at her being here. Come on consulate. Give her the visa.

It's been a while.

This morning I am sitting at work, thinking about filling the day and wanting to write something. It has been a while, but as there is no one out there, who cares I'm only writing for myself- that's a challenge to anyone reading to contact me. I have been reading Amy Tan's The opposite of fate. I have enjoyed it immensely. It is one of those books where you read something and think "the same thing happened to me!" There's a skill in writing like that, that convinces the reader of shared experiences. I wish I could write.

Zhe and I are currently waiting for the visa. We have done everything and can now only wait for an answer. I've been waiting for nearly 3 years and now we are almost there. Can I still do it? Can I still open up and share my life with someone else? What about the things that you find out about another only after living with them. Can I cope with that, finding out about Zhe and she finding out about me. All that kind of stuff.